I should probably clarify that baby-wearing is fairly new to me. Kaitlyn was in the stroller more than she was in a carrier, but it’s the reverse with Emma. I think Emma has been in our rather expensive jogging stroller only twice. Maybe it’s because the girls were born in different seasons (Kaitlyn in the summer, Emma in the winter), so it made more sense to wear Emma than push a stroller through snow, ice and slush. Maybe it’s that I’ve had to keep up with Kaitlyn while caring for Emma and the farm. Or maybe I just know that too soon Emma is going to want to walk and run on her own rather than cuddle with me and so I want to have her with me while she still wants to. It’s probably a combination of all of these, but regardless Emma spends a good part of her day strapped to me as we go about our daily activities.
Wearing Emma just felt natural to me. Just like co-sleeping and not letting her cry it out, having her close to me as much as possible just seemed like the right thing for both of us. Emma is a pretty easy-going baby and plays really well by herself, but sometimes she just needs to cuddle and sometimes I just need to cuddle her. Unfortunately, despite my deepest pleas, time does not stand still for these cuddles. This is where a carrier has come in very handy. I can keep working around the farm and the house or play with Kaitlyn without missing out on holding Emma.
Being able to keep Emma close to me has allowed me to carry on with all the responsibilities of being on a farm and taking care of a family and house, without having to miss out on quality time with Emma. Whether it’s hiking with the dogs in the woods, mucking stalls, cleaning the house, helping Kaitlyn ride her bike or cooking dinner, Emma can be with me. She can experience the world around her from a safe and cozy vantage and of course when she needs to eat she can do so easily. If she gets tired she just has to lay her head against me and drift to sleep. And I love that her soft head is easily within kissing reach. My heart melts every time she wraps her arms around my tummy and lays her head on my chest for a cuddle. Having already had one child I know that these precious moments are fleeting and so to be able to have more of them by having Emma with me as much as I can is a treat.

I know that Emma won’t remember our baby wearing days, but I will. I will always hold onto the memories of her little warm body pressed so close against me; how I want to cry every time she looks up into my eyes and smiles. I will cherish these days when it seems like she and I share a private little cocoon together, exploring and living together. When she’s older and yearns for some space, and especially when she asks to borrow the car, I’ll have these memories to hold close.